2WW again....

So here we are in the 2ww again... Please God let this be the one! I got positive opks on Thurs night and Friday morning. I think I might have O'd Friday. Friday night was back to negative and my EWCM dried up so I'm pretty sure. I know I'm very fortunate that clomid doesn't take away my EWCM. The temp thing doesn't usually work for me because of the thyroid problem I guess. My temps are usually all over the place. But we got in some timely BDing and I'll start taking the progesterone tonight and we'll see what happens in about 10 days, won't we?

Easter weekend was good. Got my highlights redone. Did a little shopping and A LOT of going out to eat with my Dad. Our visit was good but it turns out he's getting a divorce and a lot of issues came up. So there were a lot of tears and a lot of me keeping my poker face on... It was exhausting!!!! I'm so glad I'm on the zoloft. If this weekend would have happened a month ago when I was crying several times a day over nothing I wouldn't have made it through this weekend in one piece. I'm still processing everything, so I'll write more later when I figure out how I feel about everything.

Easter dinner was excellent and I got to hide the eggs for my niece and nephew. That's my favorite part!!!!! Well that and dyeing the eggs, but I didn't get a chance to do that this year since I was entertaining my Dad. We saw the Lincoln Lawyer. OMG is it good!!!!! Very suspenseful... and a little eye candy like McConnaughy (sp?) definitely doesn't hurt!!!

How many days till the next 3 day weekend??? Let the countdown begin! LOL

Still waiting....

Almost halfway through the 2ww, nothing to report really. Of course that makes me think this isn't the month. Guess we'll find out in a week. I'm definitely feeling better on the zoloft!!!! Maybe its just placebo effect since I've been on it less than a week. But I feel like I'm less negative right now. I haven't gotten mad every time I see a celebrity has a BFP. I don't get all weepy every time I'm alone with my thoughts. I know its little things, but its progress for sure. I got a nook last year and I finally figured out how to access free books from the public library. Its awesome!!!! I put a ton of books on my wish list. Some titles I was looking for weren't available as an ebook yet, but there are lots I'm interested in. Even a couple on IF and hypothyroid stuff. Woo! I'm a huge nerd and I love reading!!! Free books was one of the main reasons I wanted to get the nook in the first place. Other than that, not much is going on. Tick tock....

CD 22

Nothing new to report really. I was so tempted to POAS this morning. I should be at 10 dpo.... But at the last minute I chickened out. I don't know why I'm even thinking I should. I never test... But last month I started feeling like my cycles were shaping up... Last month was 28 days instead of 25-26... I ovulated much earlier and now I'm taking my progesterone... And the timing of the BDing couldn't have been any better... I'm still afraid to get my hopes up tho. And if I take a test than that means that I must really have a lot of hope and I don't want to admit that because then I'll be really crushed when it comes up negative as usual.... And I'm sure it will be negative... No symptoms imaginary or real... No implantation cramps or twinges... No sore boobs.. Nothing.... Blah!

I've taken the progesterone for over a week now and so far I'm lucky that I haven't had any side effects. No sore boobs or anything. Not that I WANT sore boobs... I just like there to be a side effect so I feel like its working. How's that for twisted! ;-) I take that back, I was eating everything in sight and feeling pretty hormonal for a few days. I didn't realize progesterone would do that to me until somebody else posted it on her blog. Duh! I should have recognized that's what it was from. But now I feel pretty much back to normal.

That's all that's going on over here in crazy town.... Just trying to survive this stupid 2ww so I can start my first clomid cycle...